Monday, December 8, 2008










You Scored as Demon

Demon: Darkness is your sanctuary. Demons are many and are all different in appearence and rank. The most common are the ones that feed off of human souls. They love to make someone fall into their inner darkness. Blood, wrath, murder... You name it they love it. These beings don't care who you are, if they set their sights on you, let's just hope you know a good excorist. They kill any love within you and pull you toward their side. By any means possible. You wish for chaos and hate, you are the Demon.






Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I would be who I would wanna be

I would rather be a dog then be one of the likes of you. Why do you think i wanna be like your kind? Disgusting and despicable as you are, always thinking you are better then anything else which result in an attitude worse then a holier than thou person. So what if the person before isn't as great as you? Must u call them dogs? Well then i would rather be the dog then you, more or less a dog has more moral values then you would ever have, Human

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Death's ?!?

When all flesh has rotted
When all bones are dust
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
Even when my name is forgotten
I am not dead.

But when am I truly dead?
Its when my beliefs perish




A man will never lose his will as long he has what is dear to him forever and ever.....

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Pledging my Allegiance






Which Major Arcana Tarot Card Are You?
created with QuizFarm.com
You scored as II - The High Priestess

The High Priestess is a card of intuition, instinct and hidden knowledge. She knows all your secrets, you can hide nothing from her. Yet you will never know the secrets she herself protects.If well aspected in a Tarot spread, this card can indicate the use of intuition to solve problems; trust to your instincts. If badly aspected, it can mean suppression and ignoring of such instincts - following your head at the expense of your heart.


II - The High Priestess



94%

XVI: The Tower



81%

IV - The Emperor



81%

VIII - Strength



75%

XV: The Devil



63%

XI: Justice



63%

I - Magician



63%

X - Wheel of Fortune



56%

XIII: Death



56%

VI: The Lovers



56%

XIX: The Sun



50%

0 - The Fool



50%

III - The Empress



50%


LOL i say : )

Monday, July 7, 2008

Chained by fate...

Today i was reminded of something.
Something i was born into... something i never wished for nor chose
Some think I'm privileged but i can tell you how wrong those people are
Imagine paying the price unwillingly for something you have no choice over
Being forced to go places and act as expected or face being lectured on what you should be
I never chose this........

And to make things worse....Everything i worked hard for or done because i wanted to is taken for granted as something i already have....My freedom was thought to be given to me....

Again i can tell you F*ck no. I fought for everything i have, I worked for it, I didn't beg for sh*t everything i have is because i wanted to.

SO STOP F*cking STEALING MY CREDIT FOR MY HARDWORK . RESPECT WHERE ITS AT

Monday, June 9, 2008

Puling the trigger

When it first began i didn't really know what to do
After awhile i came up with a conclusion or rather a solution
But then there were still doubts and thoughts about this solution
All the might and might not bes and also the perhaps and perhaps not

But after that night....it is all clear now
I no longer will have a second thought.
I no longer will have any doubt.
I no longer care for the welfare.
I will just execute what i must.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Hua Po O_O


Hua Po Try googling Hua Po : D you will get to somewhere familiar

Saturday, May 31, 2008

It wasn't my fault insanity took me by suprise

I had something really nice that i wanted to post up here....but then insanity took over and then well you just have to wait another time for it

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Remember kids...Drugs Are Bad




Your Personality Is Like Cocaine



You're dynamic, brilliant, and alluring to those who don't know you.

Hyper and full of energy, you're usually the last one to leave a party.

Sometimes your sharp mind gets the better of you... you're a bit paranoid!



At your best: You're confident, euphoric, and feel like you're on top of the world.



What people like about being around you: You're intense and overpowering.



What people dislike about being around you: You can be arrogant... and a bit of a jerk.



How addicted people get to you: Incredibly addictive. And hanging around with you isn't cheap!

Where was I when insanity took over.....
And how long can reality contain me.....
I pray for the whom may it concern.....
Godspeed and all things fast I would say.....
For Patience was not one of my Forte.....

Friday, May 23, 2008

T4g By f4g

Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

Why the hassle?
^
^
^
Whatever zhuo liang says : D why da hassle

1. If you were to be an ice cream, which flavour would you be?
~ Caramel and chocolate

2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?
~ The power of Chaos , Time , Space , Void , Abyss , and im greedy : D

3. What do you think of your brother(s)/sister(s)?
~ Bugger

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
~ Japan and a fantasy world

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
~ Having my powers granted : )

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
~ duh? isn't it science proven?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
~ My powers : (

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
~ Research the Cure for Death

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
~ why not o.o?

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
~ Good points?
A>>>>Gay
B>>>>level 99 n00b
C>>>>Very sensitive ~~

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
~ People who think the world revolves around them because its quite obvious the world revolves around me and me alone : )

12. Which colour highlighter do you prefer?
~ Teal

13. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
~ I have no fault : ) but ofcourse they point out to me and i prove em wrong : D

14. What do you think is the most important in your life?
~ Immortality

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
~ Sometimes : D

16. What is the thing that you really want now?
~ My powers as of above ~~

18. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?
~ Duh ~~

19. Do you always think of someone?
~ Sometimes : D

20. If you had the chance to change your gender/sex which would you choose? Explain.
~ Male ~~ cuz well i like being male ~~

i t3h t4g people
All the people in my link list weeee or whoever who reads this (congrats lifeless friends!!)

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

D3v1l 4rc4n4


You are The Devil


Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession


The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.


Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.


What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

l4mb

Mortal and fools all the same
Lambs lambs lambs to the slaughter

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Face problem o.o


I saw this on the yesterdays newspaper 17/05/08 this morning

Friday, May 16, 2008

Another tag to annoy you with : )

Section one : Have You Ever

1.Cheated on Someone? I am always cheating in life ^^
2.Fallen off the bed?Twice actually....i now sleep aware thanks to that : )
3.Broken someones heart? w00t yes :D
4.Had your heart broken? maybe....don't remember
5.Had your dream come true? Always ^^
6.Done something you regret? Alot : D but i wouldn't have it any other way

Section two : Currently

1.Wearing? House clothes
2.Like anyone? duh? who doesn't
3.Had Piercings? T4kd3 : (
4.Drive? Once and my last till im 18 T_T
5.Ever smoked? Who knows : )
6.Tattoos? Non so far : D

Section three : Last person you

1.Hugged? Don't remember.....someone in my dreams i think ><
2.Kissed? Private ^^
3.IMed? i MSN everyday lar
4.Talked on the phone to? Jia Eu..... GO TAKEI w00t !!
5.Yelled at? Don't remember... i yell alot


Section Four : Personal

1.What do you/did you wanna do when you finish(ed) school?Move ta japan ta live :D!!
2.What has been the best day of your life? The day i was born and die?
3What comes first in life? Immortality and Preseverance
4.What are you most scared of? Dying on the job....or being alone....
5.What do you ussually think of when you go to bed? Alot of random random crap
6.Did you lose someone you really loved? Thinked so....
7.Love you family? maybe ^^

Section five : Favourite

1.Movie? Currently....Narnia prince caspian , ironman and Persona3 althou persona isnt a movie
2.Song? Subete no hito no tamashii no shi and subete no hito no tamashii no tatakai and Memories of you/kimi no kioku
3.Ice cream flavour? Durian flavour :D
4.Fruits? Durian and custard apples ^^ nyam
5.Candy? Cotton candy and the good ol' lollipop
6.Day of the week? i dont really have any favourite days : (
7.Colour? and grey black

Section six : Do you

1.Like to give hugs? Depends to who and what ^^
2Like to walk in the rain? Yes : D i dont feel sweaty in the rain
3.Prefer black or blue jeans? i can't wear jeans T_T but i would take black?
4.Like to travel? I plan to go around the world :D
5.Sleep on your side? Err dumb question like duh?
6.Have a goldfish? i remember pieces of my past with fighting fish only
7.Ever have the falling dream? Yeah, some i jumped my self
8.Have stuffed animals? I have not stuffed any animals ^^

Section seven : This or that

1.Pierced nose or tongue? Ear
2.MTV or BET? I cant watch both...but mtv i guess
3.7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek? Seen dawsons creek once before and i think neither
4.Sugar or Salt? Sugar is candy rite? sugar then
5.Silver or gold? Silver : d cooler and wont get robbed :D
6.Chocolates or flowers? I would eat chocolates and give flowers : D
7.Colour or black-and-white photos? Black and white :D more nostalgic noir feeling
8.M&Ms or Skittles? Skittles p4wn t3h w0rld
9.Stay up late or sleep in? Both :D depends
10.Hot or cold? cold....everything cold....even food....
11.Ketchup or Mustard? Ketchup, mustard is icky : (
12.Spring or Fall? Fall :D cooler nicer end feeling
13.Happy or Sad? Sadness of battle and the happiness of victory
14.Wonder or Amazement? Wonder : D
15.OC or Laguna Beach? Whats oc : (

I tagged:

  1. Zhuo Liang Cuz i love to annoy the fk outta him
  2. Xinwei : D
  3. Justin t3h f4g
  4. travis of the Face..........

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

T4gz0rz 1n 1337

Im gonna do half the t4g 1n 1337 ^^

1. what is the most important thing in your life?
- Archieving 1mm0rt4l1ty

2. will you consider a sexual relationship before marriage?
- Why n0t o.O

3. do you smoke?
- N0p3 l1f3 is short enough

4. what is the latest gadget that you own?
- K850I or was it K950I

5. who did you mostly text yesterday?
- The l3v3l 99 r3t4rd

6. how old are you and are you a virgin?
-16 and th3 l4st one is pr1v4t3

7. what is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
- Japanese notes which cost rm 5 o.o

8. chocolate, oreos or villa?
- t3h 0r30s

9. where do you wish to get married?
- Somewhere relevant preferably quiet

10. how old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
- F0r3v3r

11. how many kids do you want?
- 2-3 : D

12. are you in love?
- Aren't we all?

13. where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
- Some restaurant in Teluk Intan perak for m0th3rs d4y

14. name the latest book that you bought?
- I don't Buy books : )

15. what is your full name?
- Tan Min Yap / Drugs Grandes

16. do you prefer your mother or father?
- This is private : )

17. do u believe in GOD?
- Y3s

18. name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time?
- D34th

19. christina or britney?
- N31th3r : (

20. do you do your laundry?
- t3h w4sh1ng m4ch1n3

21. the most exciting place you want to go?
- Japan Akhibara :D

22. hugs or kisses?
- Hugsies :D

23. single or attached?
- If your available and cute im single : )

24. point out 5 things that made the person tagged you associated with you
Megan
-Short
-Small
-Vertically challenge
-Emotional
-Friendly

Im tagging...
  1. T3h l3v3l 99 r3t4rd Zhou liang
  2. Justin
  3. Travis
  4. The creepy shadow behind you : D
  5. Xin Wei :D

Friday, May 9, 2008

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
You scored as a Psychology/Sociology
You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Psychology, Sociology, or related majors (e.g., Counseling, Industrial-Organizational (I-O) Psychology, Social Work, or other social science majors).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Psychology and Sociology are both great minors to add to any major. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

94%
Psychology/Sociology

94%
Education/Counseling

81%
HR/BusinessManagement

75%
English/Journalism/Comm

75%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

75%
Religion/Theology

69%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

69%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology

63%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy

56%
Visual&PerformingArts

50%
Mathematics/Statistics

44%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing

38%
Physics/Engineering/Computer

38%

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Mine Promise To Thee

I swear with all my power I will take You down
Delete You , doesn't matter how doesn't matter anymore when
As long I can with even my life I will end You.

It was then when You made my life lose all its meaning
And now I'm just a living shell, One which has only 1 purpose
And it is with this shell that I will do all I can just to rid this world of You,

I would Bring the World to the point of destruction
I would Bring upon Chaos to End Thee
No graves will be made Nor death be mourned
No Rest for the wicked Nor Hope for the weary
Till the Time Which I End Thee

I Will Wipe Thee Existence As I Wipe Mine Sin
Even when all flesh has rotted and all bones are dust
I Will Walk To Finish What We Started and End Thee
Even when the world has fallen and all has been lost to darkness
I Will Wander The Abyss To End Thee
Even when my memory is gone and my soul is shattered
I Will Keep Mine Promise And End Thee

Friday, May 2, 2008

Burn My Dread extended

22. Burn My Dread -Last Battle-
Vocals: Yumi Kawamura, Lotus Juice

I will burn my dread
Burn my dread

There's no man's land
No man's ever survived
Invisible hands are
Behind you just now
If you ever win that
Race against rage then
You'll be the king coz
It's no man's land
(For real)

The mask in heavy rain
Ultimately slain
Make shadows slave
What they done is in vein
Carrying AK-47
Twenty four-seven but
You've got eleven
Persecuted by heaven

Comes from the direction
No indication
You've got to
To let it move first
Let it out
Let it down
Let it inside
Let loose
Letting letting damn depressed
Let's get it up

Then which gotta do is to
Drop the hammer down
Drop rhyme drop hammer
Digging like a labor
You've got blood all over
Ash all over
Spit it out son
Game's over

Burn my dread
Tear up your fear
The end is coming near
Spit it out like a spear*
I'll burn your dread

No soul
Robust
All dust
We bust justice
To the man with no life

Burn My Dread

01. Burn My Dread
Vocals: Yumi Kawamura

Dreamless dorm, ticking clock
I walk away from the soundless room
Windless night, moonlight melts
My ghostly shadow to the lukewarm gloom
Nightly dance of bleeding swords
Reminds me that I still live

I will burn my dread
I once ran away from the god of fear
And he chained me to despair

Burn my dread
I'll break the chain
And run till I see the sunlight again

I'll lift my face and run to the sunlight

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Gray Shade

I cannot see I cannot see,
A gray fog has blocketh me,
What will happen and what is to come,
Has clearly eluded me

No matter how much i stare,
A gray cloud is all i see
It blocks what is to come
It blocks what is to happen
It blocks all that will be

Why is there a gray shade disrupting my vision?
A great destiny i am not allowed to for tell ?
A great decision which i may not meddle in?
A great tide of destruction that must descent?

A truly decisive future
that i cannot meddle in
i express joy for the greatness archieved
and grief for the sadness which comes
A future that must be decided by
And only by them who have the gray shade
For they are destined for cH4nG3
And also for sorrows of sacrificed

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Gatekeeper's Burden

It isn't my duty as a gatekeeper
Neither it is my obligation
However i find myself again at this position
To carry the burden of fate
The words of destiny
and the vision of the future

When did i begun to hold it?
When did i begun to care?
When did it effect me so much?
Was it when i broke the oath
And peaked into the gates?

That day which i do not regret
However is a day i long for the past
The times when i was just a keeper
For a gate which was as old as time

even faster now...

77 words

Speedtest

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

74 words

Speed test




I got 2 words faster :D

Friday, April 11, 2008

oh noes tags : (

DON'T SPOIL IT. Name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head.Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 5people.This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly. << very true o.o

1: Juan <<><
2: Andrew paul o.o ?
3: melvin 4d people ?
4: ellysia ^^
5: Jia eu going cyber with him on sunday : D


ARE

YOU

READY

???

DONT

PEEK

IF

YOU

HAVENT

WRITTEN

DOWN

THE

5


NAMES

!!!!

1. How did you meet 1?(Juan)
Ragnarok online : D!!

2. One a scale of 1-10, how would you rate your friendship with 1?
6-7? :D msn friends only thou

3. How long have you known 4?(ellysia)
Since form 1

4. How do you know number 3?
Cf camp i think the first time i met the bugger :D

5. Where's 5?(ho jia eu)
probably at home playing ps2 or at a cyber :D!!

6. A fact about number 1?(juan)
Funny ? funky : D dont really know her real personality

7. Who is 4 going out with?(Ellysia)
so far no one ~~

8. What does 1 do for a living?
Still studying in college or uni i think. Oh wait she eats cinnamon cookies to live :D


9. Would you live with number 3?(melvin)
I dont really mind or care :D as long he doesnt go commando at home i guess its okay ~~

10. What do you like about number 2?
bullyable.... very bullyable

11. Do you miss number 5?(Ho jia eu)
No ~~ i just saw him at zhaos house ~~

12. Would you make out with number 4?(ellysia)
Yeah...i guess...hard to answer that : P dont want get whacked either

13. What's your opinion of number 2?
bullyable again :D

14. What's your favorite memory with number 5?(Ho jia eu)
Pressing v behind him in Call of duty 4 : D

15. What would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?(juan and andrew)
cant think o.o they probably have a 0.001 % chance to meet?

1
6. Ever had a long conversation with 5?
does screaming about shooting the guy behind me count?

17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?
been there but never slept o.o Bangalow man

18. Do you hang out with 3 alot?
I see him often but never really talk for long : D great pianist i say

19. Who have you known the longest?
probably juan from my standard 5 ragnarok online phase

20. How often do you talk to 1?
I spam her alot :D

21. What about 2?
nope just physical contact...like punching him in the gut everytime we pass each other

22. Have you ever taught 3 more then a friend?
His a guy so yeah never


23. Would you go out for a date with 5?(Jia eu)
We go cyberin every sunday :D!!!

24. Do you dream about 2?(Andrew)
Hell i dream we were in war , he got shot and i had to carry him before. but i think i dumped him somewhere...

25. What did number 4 did to you that you can never forget?
Muffins and cakes....nuff said i guess ^^

26. What have you done for 1 that the person never forget?
no idea.... daily spamming ^^" ?

27. What's 3 hobby?(melvin)
i have no idea... playing his keyboard?

28. Tag 5 people :
1: Ding porlyn
2: Juan :D!! i bet u dont even check
3: justin
4: travis
5: Meiyi ; D u just left me a message

Sunday, April 6, 2008

PIZZA HEART? NO HUT? ROFLECOPTERLMAOZ!!

haha random title weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

lazy bloggy
so....

new handphone....
ponteng is fun....
EUPHORIA :D!!
genting?maybe o.o
Penang? maybe also

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Noggenfogger wonders : D

Small kitty riders
Doctor death mini
Doctor death mini #2
Against all odds

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Things i do in Wow

Different from the things i see in the World of warcraft . Its things i do on a average day in the World of warcraft , So here are some pictures i took of what i do in the world of warcraft.
Theres always time to follow mechanical chickens : )
Ofcourse theres the routine getting ganked by a bunch of undead, bring priest and all
On my free time i visit the local alien wildlife
And then i kill them : )
At the end of the days i liked to get drunk and sometimes dont remember what happened

Things i see in Wow

What i do in the World of Warcraft on a lazy day.
Theres always the skygazing while riding a gryphon.....
Then theres the ocult activities that i like to stare at Then theres this cool looking digging pits
And ofcourse the average tree logs

Sunday, March 16, 2008

I ish t3h n0t drunk

Wee various screen shots


Saturday, March 15, 2008

Oreilly and the ghost busters :D!

GHOST BUSTERS :D!!!!!!!one!!!!

O RLY ?!?!?!?!

Thursday, March 13, 2008

@$!$ streamyx i say

The title says enuff : ) Wishing streamyx an early $@!# death.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

KITTY RIDER!!!!!111!!!!!11one!!!!!!

WEE I HAVE tHe MOUNT!!!!!!!11!!!!!one!!!!!!

Standard Form Kitty Rider
Shadow Form Kitty Rider
WEE I HAVE tHe MOUNT!!!!!!!11!!!!!one!!!!!!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Tan Min Yap Character Stats

Lvl :16
Hp : 100
Mp: 10

Gear Specifications:

Home Gear:
Home shirt - Comfort+ 10 Relaxation+5 Armor:N/A
Home Pants - Comfort+ 15 Armor:N/A

School Gear:
Standard School Uniform Shirt Stamina+ 5 Armor:2
Taylor made Librarian Pants -Comfort+3 Intelligence+5 Armor:2
Addons : Tie(on Mondays) Comfort- 10 Looks+ 3

Outing Gear:
Outing Shirts - Comfort+ 5 Looks+ 3 Armor:5
Long Pants - Looks+ 4 Stamina-2 Armor:7
OR
ThreeQuarter pants - Comfort+ 5 Stamina+ 2 Armor:2

Additional Gear:
Ring - Looks+ 1
Bracelet - Looks+1
Glasses - Vision +20 Intelligence+ 5 Focus- 2

Skills
-Beginner physchoanalysis
-Beginner Prediction
-Standard Librarian Skill
-Average Trivia
-Advance World of Warcraft Knowledge
-Advance Studying Methods
-Advance Public Speech Giving / Spam
-Minor Computer Fixes

Talents
-Unsatiable Hunger - Eating+ 10
-Endless Belly - Food Capacity+10 Fat +10
-Emotion Control-Unaffected by Emotions Sanity -10

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Point of Chaos

A barren
A wasteland
A forest
A dune
A city
A ruins
A blank spot

A point which cannot be comprehended

A place with a history
A point in time where we once triumph
Non existence which was worshiped
Timeless nothingness
What is and what is not
Nothing is still and always still at all times
Unpredictable and random
Which wages war on Logic and Reality
Victory did not matter for What Chaos wanted
Was never fixed , that would just go against its principles

Monday, February 25, 2008

Drowning the Regrets and Sorrows

It was night like this that i hated.... School tomorrow....The day before being too lazy....

And i have trouble sleeping. No matter how many times i closed my eyes i just couldnt sleep. I didnt know why at first, So i did what every else would do... Find something to snack on. I had some fruits in the fridge which i havent ate yet. So i went to chow it down.

It was when i was eating i just had a realization of things... Thinking back... All the foolish shit i done and all the things i got that gones to waste. Truly u wont feel its needed until its all too late. I thought back into time. Further and further.

This was a night where i couldnt drown my feeling of regret and sympathy towards the things that i lost. Wasted and beyond repair... I dont really know what to do except to drown my self with something they call Reality or what others call The Present and in now. No use thinking about the past, its already over nothing u can do to help it.

But what really makes me stronger and closer to my goal is to actually accept it and save what i can.

Looking back

Looking back.....All the things i done till now i would not do it any other way... Given a chance to change it i might... but then again might as well leave it as it is

Friday, February 15, 2008

Mind over matter

No matter what happens mind over matter shall prevail....

Saturday, February 2, 2008

6 Bullets

In my hand i have six...
Six rounds of lead...
Six rounds of devastation...
Six rounds of death...

I shot 1 at the sky...
Just to hear the sound...
Of flame metal combustion...
I shot 2 at the shadows...
for thats where shades reside...
I shot 1 at crowd...
just to get them aside...
I shot 1 more at the sky...
For things were getting quiet...
And the last i shot at not...

Sunday, January 27, 2008

DONT POKE DA BEAR


DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS DONT POKE THE BEARS

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

THE CAKE IS A LIE THE CAKE IS A LIE

HL2 Portal Credit song - Still ALive

This was a triumph
I'm making a note here
HUGE SUCCESS
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction
Aperture Science

we do what we must because we can
for the good of all of us except for the ones who are dead
but there's no sense crying over every mistake
you just keep on trying until you run out of cake
and the science gets done and you make a neat gun
for the people who are still alive

I'm not even angry
I'm being so sincere right now
even though you broke my heart and killed me
and torn into pieces
and threw every piece into a fire
as they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data make a wonderful line
and we're out of beta, we're releasing on time
so I'm glad I got burned
Think of all the things we learned for the people that are still alive

go ahead and leave me
I think I prefer to stay inside
maybe you'll find someone else to help you
maybe black mesa
that was a joke, haha, fat chance
anyway this cake is great, it's so delicious and moist
look at me still talking, when there's science to do
when I look out there it makes me glad I'm not you
I've experiments to run, there is research to be done
on the people who are still alive

and believe me I am still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive
While you are dying I'll be still alive
and when you're dead I'll be still alive
STILL ALIVE, still alive

Sunday, January 20, 2008

WARNING: HATE RANT

WARNING THIS IS A HATE RANT PLEASE DO NOT READ IF UR A WHINY MINOR!!!!
IF YOU DO READ THIS YOUR VIEW ABOUT MAY CHANGE ..... ALOT!!
































































































































































Well without further adieu i present to you my hate rant : )

Lets begin midly..... Firstly i like to say something about my weight. Althou im not sensitive about it i fucking hate it when some fucking retard tells me about it. If its a friendly concern about my health go ahead i take it but if its some fucking insult u can go fucking suck on ur own fucking dick for fuck sake. Sure fat is ugly.... sure it wont get me chicks.... SURE THE HELL I KNOW ABOUT THAT ALREADY SO WHY NOT FUCKIGN DONT TELL ME ABOUT IT ALREADY

more over i hate 4 kinds of things
1stly is people who tell me SHIT i already am doing like dieting....Fuck like i dun want get thin like that.
2ndly i like doing things my pace and fuck u if u think im not doing it at all cuz i will admit if i am not doing anything at all
3rdly i hate bitches who ask me the same question twice when i already explain. I dont mind if i explained it not well or blur. Or ur a blur person and u have problem understand that i will accept but what we talking now is when i say something perfectly clear with no error whatsoever u ask me again for the sake of fucking asking it : )
4thly i hate is..... something private : ) so im not saying it here


And also i hate threats....fucking hate them: )

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Liberi Fatali / Fateful Children

Wake up from your dream, my children.
There is no cradle.
Wake up from your dreams, fated children.
The dream is not going.

Arise.
Discover the truth of the Garden.

Burn with truth
Scorch the world of evil.
Burn with truth
Set fire to the world of darkness.

Goodbye, children,
From the days of destiny.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Fake Wings

Shine bright morning light
Now in the air the spring is coming
Sweet blowing wind
Singing down the hills and valleys
Keep your eyes on me
Now we're on the edge of hell
Dear my love, sweet morning light
Wait for me, you've gone much farther, too far

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Zombie Holocaust

Ive been having dreams about a zombie holocaust more and more often nowadays.
So i thought i might put a list of things to do for those of u who are least likely to survive such an event and just make more zombies for me to kill : D

Well firstly if a zombie apocalypse happens and u want to survive it, first u have

1:Make sure it really is one before anything else without putting ur self in danger.
2:Secure a Valid perimeter to ensure u have time to think about what next.
3:Secure food and water supplies but more importantly shelter.
4:Dump all sentimentality out the window because its about survival now.
Examples : your best friend or close member of the family just died or became a zombie, dont stone there and cry. Run or Aim for the head.
5: Sharp LONG pointy things that are solid and can be used to pierce the skull to hit da brain is your best friend.
6: Your next best friend is ofcourse fire arms, but its rather scarce being in a peaceful country like malaysia .
7: For those who never used a fire arm before , dont whine do something and try to shoot. But just try not to shoot ur self in the leg : D ****AIM FOR THE HEAD
8: Beware of insane people that you will meet because if it really happens everyones sanity gonna be at its limits.
9: SECURE plentiful ammounts of food and water for being in malaysia , due to all natural means and pray thanks that no mutation happens, the zombies will rot or die off fast enough.
10: Wait for shit to happen or steal a car and drive around

Saturday, January 5, 2008

2nd day of school

ZOMG WRITING ON THE 2nd DAY OF SCHOOL IS SUCH A SIN!!! ITS LIKE w00T WORK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? WTFZOMGZORZ

Thursday, January 3, 2008

wee new class

W00t new class im in 3 cempaka now :D and i have a new HOBBY :D!!!

well melinda wants me to blog about well hi melinda i blogged about you weee :D!!!

Kay now on towards my hobby. My new hobbies are thinking of ways to make the guy called Zhou Liang suffer : ) so im sharing 10 ways with u all even thou they are rather simple

1:Punch him the in face
2:Beat him with a stick
3:Whack him with the books im gonna get tomorrow
4:Break his fingers
5:Stab his tongue
6:Poke his eye out with my thumb
7:Suffocate him with the rubbish bag
8:Relocate his shoulder bones
9:Break his legs
10:Just plain push him off the 3rd floor

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Golly holidays

went for a count down at curve :D!!

And now i shall list a thank yous :D

Firstly thanks to travis for making my first cd event 30% sucky
Then secondly 20% to the bastard spraying me for making it annoying
Also 40% to the Shogun for making my lunch worthwhile
Lastly 10% to the hot and cute chicks around...well for being hot and cute :D Eye candy never hurt anyone XD

Also watched Avp2 which i thought was okay if u know the story ~~
Some said it was boring and sucked cuz they probably dont remember the first one or never seen the game before ~~

Then i also fixed a handphone , help some aunty and stoned for a couple of hours in a public place. Woopy f*cking doo sure love holidays : ) next year im so not going curve anymore